Fustrated

I have this nagging feeling in my heart
Its like ... I dunno how to explain it too ...
I feel rather sad . Its like .... Why must someone also make a fool out of me .
Life , It's a rather sad thing isn't it .
standing from my point of view ...
Where everything just seem Pitch black ...

I feel fustrated . Please dun do this to me anymore . I feel as if I'm gonna breakdown already . I can't take anymore jokes insults or ignores anymore . This empty feeling feels really awful .

Update

Been long since I've updated my blog =D Having Tuition like mad this days . Haha . Been doing maths . Maths Maths Maths . I know have to concentrate on others too but currently my Pirorities[sp?] are Maths and sci . Eng Lit to me is can't really study one . I just need to read more and practice more . Though abit late for now .

Tuition have been alright for this while . I'm always isolated . Lol . Cuz I get distracted very easily ...

Hmmm ... Eng papers in 2 days . I'm nervous !!! My compo is really really bad. I really want a 'A' But I know I'm not up to standard so I'm praying really really hard for a B3 ! But I know no matter wad , I'll walk into the exam hall in faith and confidence . God will help me =D I know that . 20 days and I'll be free .

Hope nth go wrong .

P/s Panick
P/P/s GOD BLESS ME AND ALL OF U OUT THERE =D

Do I Like Him or Not

But I guess that's not exactly the question now . There's only an ans now , that's to give up .

I've been saying around that I'm alright already . Alright already . But when I really think about it , Just how long . How long will I be the person who will be loved rather than the person who goes around loving . I feel dam sad for myself . I need a shoulder to ly on . A support . Someone to pity me for my stupid heart .

Is it because I'm easy going that they don't think about my feelings ? Am I really that strong ? I don't what to feel now . Happy for them ? Sad for myself ?

But no matter what . I know I shouldn't let this bother me because O's is coming and That's my focus . But obviously ... after one big round , The only person that knows that I'm not feeling good is me and the only person I'm trying to convince is also me

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME . muahahahahaha . Pics so Difficult to upload . View on Facebook ba !!! [http://www.facebook.com/meimeix?cropsuccess=#/album.php?aid=116139&id=607668009]

Today is Nutti .

Had Tuition in the morning . Took bus alone !!! How sad . Should've met up with Emrys and Eugena . Oh well ... Maths tuition today ... Had a difficult time !!! Maths = Difficult .

But I still love maths -.- Pinched Shawn and Shawn Loy today . Muahahah ... Make me la . Pinch U all even more . Hit Emrys oso . Oh well .. so normal . Have maths paper to do !!!! Ahhhh ... Going crazy ...

Currently at Cousin's place =D Going off le . Cuz let him play Com =D Haha ... byex ...

I Eyecandy U . Cuz u are pleasing to my eye ? hahah .. Love s

Stress

O's coming so fast suddenly . It shouldn't be like this but I'm not prepared . Yes . I can only blame myself but still ... God . Help me . I pray that I may concentrate more now on every subject that I learn and revise . I hope everything will turn out well ... Amen ...

I'm putting blog on Hiatus because of O's . I can't afford time to blog . Wait for my next post =)

P/s Boy , U're my pillar of support

P/P/s I miss u

Went to Laoshi's house to do science today . Wanted to stay until finish my paper but Laoshi got things on in the afternoon ... so cannot . After that actually suppose to go Terminal 3 to study with Santine but I cancelled on her because I was with Felyn . Sorry . I know u love me =D hehex ..

After tuition . Felyn and I went to Tampines for awhile before coming back . Wanted to finish my paper but was feeling really tired .. so ya ... Seph asked me out but I declined . AWw .. Feel so bad ... Oh well .. next time ba =D

Gonna end here . Have to go do chem paper ... =D

P/s i love u

Tuition

Had Tuition just now ... Teacher gave us new timetable le . Then I got suan-ed by Laoshi . Shawn Loy still Laugh until so long loud and happy ? Face also red . Mean !!! Gonna go crazy in Oct !!! Tuition 2pm-10pm . 10am-10pm . God bless me xD Hehex. ..

Talk about SHOES

Lol ... ME and FELYN TAN Have been wearing 2 different school shoes to school for 3 days and we only realised today . COOL RIGHT . LOL . Its both Kappa la . Haha

SHAW LI YUAN

Today's Drama
I , Mikomi , Hereby declare that ShawLiYuan is no longer a friend of MINE . END OF FRIENDSHIP . HOW DARE U GIVE ME A HEARTATTACK LIKE THAT . ALMOST MADE ME AND KAREN CRY . HALF MY LIFE GONE LE LA .

Today really drama sia . Liyuan [I not really not brfriending her la] fainted on me today !!! Yes . Such Drama . Hope she's ok now . That girl ar . Really ... Got me and Karen Worried crazy . Dun really wanna emphasize much . Not a good memory .

Girl . Take care la . I love U

Concerning love no more

I suddenly feel so silly with all the love love stuff in my life . I don't have a History of love life but still ... Wad's I've done in the name of love is totally beyond wad I do usually . I'm so bewildered by my actions too ...

I , Mikomi , Hereby declare that I break up with Love .

Mikomi Don't wanna believe in love anymore . There's more heartbreak then feeling of ecstasy [sp?]

Mikomi gives up

MIKOMI

HAS A BLUE BLACK ON HER LEG ALMOST AS BIG AS HER FIST

Something from Msn news bout Libras

Libra
Balance is the keyword for this sign, and when it comes to keeping everything on an even keel, a Libra will lead the pack. Peace loving and judicial, this sign abhors being alone. Partnerships are very important for the Libra, especially those on a personal level. With their winning personalities and cooperative style, they aren't apt to be alone for long!

Friends and Family
Fun loving and willing to help out, the Libra makes an excellent friend. Even though they can be late and indecisive, once they're on the scene, they're ready to go. This flexible sign loves to spend time with friends and family and doesn't hesitate to initiate gatherings. Sociable and suave, Librans naturally draw people to them. They have a way of creating a compelling aura of harmony around them. When it comes to challenges, this balancing sign can see both perspectives in a disagreement, making them excellent problem-solvers. Companionable, they're apt to keep their friends and family busy.

Career and Money
Harmony is the keyword for this sign. For the Libra, maintaining this is of the utmost importance. They can be excellent leaders and will work hard to earn and deserve the privilege. Truth and justice always prevail for Librans as they go about their days. Working with others or in a partnership is ideal for this social sign. Artistic and persuasive, these folks are gifted talkers who do well in any position that provides a platform for them to chat. Careers that involve justice such as police officer, lawyer, or judge are excellent choices for Libra. They will also succeed at such occupations as diplomat, civil servant, interior decorator, composer, and fashion designer. Group settings pose no challenge for Librans - in fact, the more the merrier. Their strong sense of diplomacy serves well in almost anything they do. If you go shopping with a Libra, best to plan some extra time! This sign can be terribly indecisive when it comes to purchasing. Balancing their money, however, is a snap for Libra. Keeping a good balance between savings and spending money is a real talent for these folks. Their love of fashion and housewares can see them out and about in stores quite often. One of Libra's favorite pastimes is to shop for someone special.

Love and Sex
Finding the right partner will be a priority in the Libra's life. For those already in a relationship, maintaining the peace and harmony takes center stage. A Libra alone is a sad thing indeed, not to mention unnatural. They need to connect with others. As lovers they are expressive, creative, and balanced. They love to make their partners feel completely and thoroughly satisfied from conversation to lovemaking. Librans' charm and dedication to striking the perfect balance with others makes them wonderful partners.

Hey ~~~

Have not been blogging regularly since I'm not suppose to use com and needa study !!! Anyway . Got back Bio , Lit and Geog results today . Need to buck up on my Humanes !!!

• Bio - 55.5/100
• Lit - 48/100
• Geog - 17/50
• Total Science - 54/100

Omg . I passed Science !!! Haha ... Be happy for me xD My geog is still as terrible and my Lit deproved !!! Bad . .. Needa work hard . Intensive today ended early so me and Toh went to Laoshi's Place early too .. .Guess how early .... 1 Freaking Hour . Yupp ... That Early . That's how much we miss him !!! Haha ... Kidding .

For today's tuition we had chem . Full class with ShawnLoy , Keith and Joey !!! Haha ... I left early because I was told that we were going to Terminal 1 to eat . In the end , went to Kallang Leisure . Kena cheated . Oh well ... At least I gave the class peace for leaving half an hour earlier . I wasn't as noisy today la .. But ppl still find me noisy . Oh well ... =(

Oh oh oh . Emrys that idiot push my head today and ask me not to wear specs !!! Today. If I had known that I was going to tuition I wouldn't have worn my specs . Haha ... Love Tuition . So much fun =D

Laoshi Talked bout his weding thingy today . Omg . I so wanna go la .. If most going I think I'm going too !!! Heheh ... Oh ... I was being mean to ShawnLoy today !!! Haha . His textbook is like so new can -.- Gay . Still say he tc wad . Is never use ba . Lol ...

P/s Gong Gong look when hungry ??? -.- LOL

P/P/s Next time not wearing specs le la . LOL

Chem

Had Chem test today !!!

Woke up at around 9.45[dragged and dragged and drag until I can't take it] today and went to shower . Went toh's place in the morning to study for Chem but we did only for like 2 hours plus ? Accidently woke Yongyi and Eugena up at 11 . Lol . Opps .. Sry . I had Chem question wad !!! In the end called Shawn Loy because couldn't get through to Laoshi's phone . Oh well . He was the only one not slpy ? Lol .. After that met Eugena Mandi and Sharon for dinner with Toh and went to Laoshi's place .

Our test paper is the O's paper of 2002 [June/November] Tried my best and I think I should be able to pass . Although not with very good results . I was quiet and didn't really asked ok!!! Took this test seriously !!! Hope there's improvement compared to my prelims !!!

Ok ... Shall end here .. Nth much already anyway . Blog again soon ... Maybe =D

P/s THX KEITH FOR RAISING MY VALUE IN FSS =D

DURIAN

YAY . JUST HAD DURIAN FOR SUPPER. Haha ... Fattening but still .. ONCE in a while la -.- Lol

Had tuition today !!! Apparently no one from my class ... Lol . I think tuition for cancelled but I din noe . Oh well =D I love Tuition anyway . Tmr have no tuition !!! So gonna study for bio and maybe Poa . Leaving Chem for Sunday . Anyway ... Anyone wanna come out and study with me !?!?! Tag me

I find it sad that we are becoming like strangers . No offence but U're such a bitch now

RESULTS

I GOT BACK MY POA CHEM AND MATHS RESULTS TODAY .

• Poa - 19/100
• Chem - 52.5/100 [WOOHOO]
• Maths - 41.7/100 [Not bad considering that no one passed in my class]

I'm not that happy will myself for the results for at least I've improved for maths and chem . Seriously thinking of giving Poa up . See my results -.- Ok ... I'm not satisfied with my results and I'm so gonna try harded for O's . DEFINITELY . I have High expectations for myself !!!

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